Almost Isn't...a project decends

Yesterdays work out was tough but, walls* were climbed (kinda like a bear even 🐻😱)!
*i have actual work out with walls issues...see "off day" post...
Let me start with, I got up! Through the entire process of waking and dressing, my mind was telling me I didn't need to do 'this', i did not need to go, my left arm is super tweaked and i should rest it another morning...My heart won!  i didn't want to incur the verbal/social media blast or pack on to any guilt or shame for not showing up (((gotta get that check in!!!))) aaannndd i was already awake....

i did 30 stoopid burpees!!! I bear crawled forwards and backwards, Suckin' awesome; but i will be honest...a bear crawl is really just an ambulatory burpee...a burpee soo stoopid it tries to get away...

Now I need to figure out this running thing. It is not in the same stoopid catergory of suck as bear crawls or burpees, but i get to a point where i hit a wall and just can not keep a pace. I am aware of my breathing and then i forget how to use my breath...then panic...but an aware/controlled panic where if i just walk...things will be ok.  Luckily I get to train with a trainer and "trainees?" that are encouraging and motivating!

I am sore to my core! Oddly, i am moving more and doing more through that soreness.  On Tuesday i 'started' 5 loads of laundry...I FINISHED FOUR* OF THEM!!!
*finished is defined here as, folded and put away!!! my best man folded and put away the fifth {swoon}.
I have cleaned out my garage, assisted an underground field trip of 40+ five and six year olds, and overall just been more actively participating in my own life and it feels fantastic. i do feel quite selfish though...all of these positive feels and changes are happening to me and there are so many more that are trapped in their OMG 'MindSet(s)'...{{{my face/head mindblown emoji}}}...

My mind is a dangerous place for me to get lost in, i know this now. Living love, pressing into my heart, following my heart, as my heart ... has not/will not lead me astray.

I don't want to quit this "Project" i have started with this blog, but I don't know how to go about getting any feedback, any comments, any...thing.
My mind tells me that is because this is stupid, illegible, unintelligible.
My heart reminds me that writing my heart has always been one of my dreams.

Found a printed note with borders (from at least 25 years ago)

"It has taken a long time to figure anything out,
It is not about what you get,
It is about what you give.
How you are perceived is what you give off.
Alone in a room full of people...
People who are close but strangers in the eye of this loner.
Caught in a world of i,
trying to push in to the we(s) and us, to be a part and not so far apart.
Babbling along in a sea of who, why, how, when and where.
Is there anybody out there?
Anyone whol feels the struggle, emptiness?
Lost in a sea of bottomless hope,
Locked into a trunk filled with good intentions and broken promises.
Where is the Key to unlock and release all of the pain inside?"

things that appear in italics were added at the time of this post...
It came to mind as I was typing and I was able to find it at first thought...so...i'm gonna publish myself!

Thank you.

-i