I did not shower, or even take off my comfy new $10 workout wear until it was time to get ready for bed!!! I wore those clothes like trophies! All.Day!
Since I have a day off and I'm pretty sure nobody want to sit and read me whine and moan about
..how sore my shoulders are
or
about how, now that I am starting to get my body hydrated 'better' I am more terrified than ever that tomorrow morning, during jump and jacks, that I will pee everywhere.
No, nobody wants to read that.
I think I would like to talk about how I worked through my anxiety over this life change; as i feel as though beginning sometime Friday evening I began rapid cycling through the five stages of grief...maybe for the life that I so desperately need(ED) to change.
1. Denial...the "What have I just done, what was I thinking...how could I have literally "committed" myself for so much Work??? And early mornings even!!!!
2. Anger...for All the parents, family and friends... to anyone in the path or wake of my attitude on the soccer field Saturday morning during that cold, windy and Cold soccer game, my most sincere apologies, I don't deal well with change.
3. Bargaining...I accidentally shaved my husbands head bald... this was probably at the base of anger and just warming up in to, turning brad into 'Sampson' and cutting off ALL his hair. Truthfully I just forgot to put the guard on (yes, again). Never did I intend to "make" him bald.
4. Depression...I did not really have time for this one since I had a once in a while date night so I kind of rushed through this to
5. Acceptance...I set my alarm clock for "prior to the but crack of dawn" and wend to bed before it was even dark outside.
All in all I think I am handling things ok. I am trying out a supplement, vitamins and eating a little better already. Well not really, but I feel like I am making better choices anyway.
I do need to mention that on an "off" day like today where I am beginning to search my brain for fresh new excuses as to why I don't need to get up and train on that I am getting so much encouragement from so many and I am so incredibly thankful and unbelievably grateful to have such support and enthusiasm from friends and family! From the very bottom of my heart, Thank you!
I am cautiously optimistic about tomorrow mornings workout and reluctantly excited to wake up and get going. I will re-up on Aleve and continue to hydrate so much that I have to stop everywhere I go and use the restroom (at least twice if I am doing any kind of browsing).
Through him and from my heart,
-i
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