A lot of wine...

ing here...

"Dora the Explorer" is on ... on repeat,
coffee is hot
i wanted to call in sick
my body is so tired

I am running my mind in circles trying to remember all of the things i say to the kids to motivate them or just use words to try to change/redirect behavior...
"Don't tell me you can't do something if you are not trying"
"you don't have to be the line leader to be a leader"
I guess because I am working now to change my own behavior (old/bad habits/routines) and create a more stable base to be...just better (eventually better than just better...) that i needed to get these words out. in letters. in front of my eyes.
Oy, change at my age is hard...i am so stubborn too. 

Camp Gladiator is (has already even!) giving me a routine, a stability in schedule (albeit Hella Early) that has created such positive change and great impact that I am more driven to press on than when I signed up. The waking up...that is happening. I think my biggest morning hurdle pops up before i even wake up; Devilish games my mind plays trying to pull me down and away from positive change and back into unproductive lifestyle choices.
I ran the first warm up lap!!! Mind you I am using the word 'ran' in the loosest sense of the word...it was really that "enthusiastic mall walker pace", but I kept it up the entire time and then a pretty solid "mom were going to be late for school pace" with 12 pounds in each hand for the second.
I did work, on some sets harder than others but my body is old, misused and All. The.way out of shape so I think it will be a bit before I can do ONE proper burpee or 60 legit reps of anything...I am In This though, I am in "Just Keep Moving" mode and i can feel myself winning! Thanks again to my fellow Campers and my Trainer(s) that keep me motivated and showing up!

I want to be a mom that my daughter aspires to be like.
I do not want to be like my mom.
I want my daughter to want to be like me, and not dreading the "oh, that reminds me of my mom" situations, moments and realizations.


Oh and my recovery was sooo Perfecto! But now...the quart sits there to mock me until my next workout...I guess I will have to find a weekend addition to workout ...#kidding #iwillwait

Give Hugs and/or High Fives Freely!

Through Him and from my heart,

-i