The i in team...

🎶red means stop, green means go, and yellow is in the middle and that means slow🎶
that is just a little ditty I started singing with the kids to work on safety signs and colors...its fun and mildly valuable if your kids like to sing songs and don't ever. stop. talking/singing...


When i actively started a change (a project) with CG I got a red shirt...and I stopped.  For five solid weeks I worked and I pushed and i hurt and I made some differences. Then some change happened and I slipped. I've stumbled to a stop and have let myself quit.

I don't do well with change and for a “bold” week, I received a full plate of change. I did not train, work out (put on shoes with laces even), or exercise for an entire week. I’m not proud of this; really I am frustrated at my inability to dodge the jabs of change and just roll past the punches of progress.
A real problem with red a red light is this; that I have gotten really good at building walls and by good I mean they go up quick. By the time i see a green light (usually in the rear view), I have already u-turned and (wait for it...) “CHANGED” my route.
I skipped through the first day back of endurance (cause i am mostly lazy and mostly always lame) and felt the weight of that decision for two whole days.
So after 14 days of no working outs with one and one extra day to feel super weighty and guilty about...

I would be remiss if i did not mention that i did see my doctor at the beginning of my 'hiatus' and she indicated that the pain i have been experiencing in my arm is most likely tendinitis [[[audible eyeroll emoji]]] giving me a medical condition of validation to red light my "project".

...I went back.

I was not super nice to start, but I was there and with each step i (mall walk'ed) ran, and all of the impressive encouragement (that got me into this in the first place) my mood was improving.
It was hard, there was a lot of running and a lot of teamwork from those who were grouped with me, I made it through and everything about my day was better for it!
Well...except my left arm...i don't really know how I am going to proceed with that, ibuprofen helps a good bit now. In all sincerity, i don't even know that it is the "CGing" that has caused it and not this blog (repetitive motion and all of that)...that i am hanging on to by a thread...

As i learn more about myself and grow out of bad habits and into better ways, i find that change isn't a bad thing...and a boost to that...it is not permanent! The fact that change happened simply means that change CAN happen, not game over, a course adjustment so that more, positive change Will happen!

-i