Commercials

back street boys and martin short???!!!!  Old Navy has just hit the limit.   I love Martin Short and for a time I think I enjoyed the back street boys, but when you couple them all together...it just seems like my past desperately trying to pull me back.

Tip?

When do i leave or offer a tip? Obviously service in a resturant or bar but mainly because i know that wages are dependent on tips; standard for me is usually 15% for service and an extra 5 for personality...
That being said, when I go to a place like starbucks or if I drive thru i do not typically tip a given amount or at all unless i happen to have cash or change (which kind of sucks on me because so many baristas these days have such personality!).
Ok, so what started this is that i am getting a delivery today (a service that i have paid for) and i am wondering what to tip if anything? I don't really have the means to "over-tip" but if i should tip then i should tip.

a day off

so i have a day off and i take advantage of it by doing menial tasks such as doctors appointments, grocery store and cleaning around the house otherwise bored. why is it that when i am not at work i can not think of a single thing to do on my own, yet when i am at work i can make lists of things i need/want to be doing other than work?

put away

the lights came off the tree

the ornaments are wrapped and put away

and the tree is boxed and shelved.

i am sad for this time of year to end but i am oh soo ready for this year to begin anew.

Sometimes the Elephant in the room doesn't have the longest memory

My best man is really the smartest and most poiniant person I know. After a fun evening with family I was lamenting not spending more time with them. I think when I was younger I was "the youngest" and was not as "cool" as I thought my siblings were and all I wanted was to be like them.

Looking at it now, I wonder what kind of couple my mom and dad must have been. There is not a time i can look back on and say that they looked as if they simply enjoyed each other or their company. I cant really even remember them together. Was there ever a time when my mother was happy? What was she like when she let loose and how did she win my dad?

ramblings.

so at stop lights with three lanes and two turn lanes: why wouldnt one turn lane light blink

it puts the lotion on my hand and makes it stop hurtning. babies are beautiful and couples working together is neat. seeing famlies reconnect is warm, and reconnecting is comforting but frustrating.

remember to let family members know how much you appreciate them.

blinker.

everyone is someone.

a start....since everyone starts somwhere and i am someone...this must be where i start.

be thankful to the best man because he compliments you and makes you feel better about yourself without even knowing he is making a difference.

letting the part create itself.

all of my life i have been concerned with living in the now and not even considering the future.

and now that my future is happening now i am scared because now i want to look at my future. and i am scared because i have lived so much in the now i have not left anything for my future and my future is with my best man. i feel like i have let him down and i don't want to feel like that. also i don't know how to be a friend, not being able to follow through. i don't want to be alone when brad is not around. i need to create friendship, companionship, community when my best man is doing his own thing so that i am not alone if i don't want to be.

mom....its not moms fault, she was living more in her now just trying to get by day to day and that ment something had to fall through the cracks. and sure she was selfish, because she was looking to make herself happy (who dosent want to be happy) it was just that she had two kids to look after and it did not fit into her trying to make herself happy.

a vocal brainstorm. to see what i am saying. glen beck? alway associated work with getting out of the house. find something to do to get out of the house....voulenteering? what? where?

gray and gloomy driving to houston, leaving a beautiful austin...i want to feel something more than the weather around me when i am going somewhere...always being able to see the silver lining, and a way to tell myself that this too shall pass and even though i can't necessarally see the silver lining at the moment but to know that it is there.

talk it out.

restroom locator app. visit a lot of toilets.

?...*eyeroll* yes I work here

In the age of blue tooth, I can almost understand why I get the question "do you work here?'...but I have gone the extra mile of wearing a logo tee-shirt (front and back) a walkie-talkie, an apron and I am usually carrying some sort of price scanning device...WTW...Yes I work here.

Customers...not always right

 Come into 'my' store and then get irritated that I am simply asking if you are finding everything/doing okay.  As with so many things, people are afraid of being pitched or sold something to the point that when an associate of THE STORE YOU ARE SHOPPING IN says hello it is easier to be rude than simply acknowledge the greeting and or say thank you.  This is the worst when the store is busy, and I take the time to check on 'you' and get rude attitude.  I am sorry the store is busy, I am doing my job and while I appreciate your business so I have a job to do, typically nobody is forcing you to shop in 'my' store; so buck up relax and be nice or go somewhere else.

Interview Day

I have an interview today. In my "reluctant time off"" I have done a lot of things and applied for a lot of jobs and had several interviews. I have gone into some of those interviews with confidance and not been chosen. Todays interview comes on the heels of what I feel was a great phone interview from a corporate recuriter. I said a lot of things on the phone that I feel were "buzz worthy" and things that the recruiter would have included as qualities or attributes that would have been listed and what the company was looking for. I am truly excited about this interview this afternoon.

On the other side, I have a former employer that has been amazing enough to give me work over the last month or so and I feel a bit guilty. My former employer is an amazing person and when I called to say hi and that I was unemployed looking for something, anything, he did not hesitate to say come on in, I will see you Monday.

where do i go, what do i do with me

what do i do? i got a job a little over three months ago, and thought it would be a great move, something new, challenging and an opportunity to learn a different industry.

i guess it should start something like i had to get a new job because i was fired. i was fired from a job that i loved, with a company that i enjoyed working for.

why was i fired? that is a tough question. i think i was fired because it was an easy way out for management (management being a former room-mate of another associate who needed "designation"). i openly admit that i made mistakes, but nothing that was against store policy or violating any rules. whatever, i was fired and it was heartbreaking. It took me almost five months to even be offered something that i thought would be a good fit. i took this job and it has turned out to be nothing like the job that was offered in the interview, and the company is dark and shady. there is no support from area managers, no training to speak of, I have been with the company for just over three months and the only real training i have recieved is a refresher course for training that has not even been offered to me. i am only helped when i have made a mistake and not trained on actual policys because nobody seems to follow any of them.

the first assistant manager i worked with transferred to a new location with a promotion only to be fired for unethecial behavior. i don't care that someone was fired, i get that, what i have a problem with is that people were upset about how the old employee got caught, not that they were caught at all. i am expected to sell, be positive and gracious when the people i work with cheat, break rules and make things work in their favor without regard to others.

the office itself is nasty! i can not imagine people coming in and feeling good about working with this compay. everything is filthy and no care is taken for any kind of creature comforts. there is a cleaning crew that comes once a week, but the only scratch the surface, take out the trash and clean the toilet. the branch manager will not even make water available to the branch unless it is under the guise of having it available for customers. the water filter/cooler that is there is dirty, in ill repair and the manager refuses to buy cups for it so that water is available.

Overtime is expected, and from what i can ascertain that comes to the tune of 11 hour days with no questions. there is no room for anything else and no room to improve because the burn out is inevitable. the people i work with are self centered and insensitive with little to no regard for the acutal customers who help run their business. Call the body shops the business, sure they initiate the call to action but it is the person renting the car that needs the care and with almost every interaction i hear about how awful the customers are. racist remarks, insults to demographic groups, lewd gestures and comments about people while they are on the phone or on their way into the location....i would never give my business to this company nor would i tell any of my friends, this is not who i want to learn and grow from and these are not the people i want to have to spend my days (11 hour days) with.