ramblings.

so at stop lights with three lanes and two turn lanes: why wouldnt one turn lane light blink

it puts the lotion on my hand and makes it stop hurtning. babies are beautiful and couples working together is neat. seeing famlies reconnect is warm, and reconnecting is comforting but frustrating.

remember to let family members know how much you appreciate them.

blinker.

everyone is someone.

a start....since everyone starts somwhere and i am someone...this must be where i start.

be thankful to the best man because he compliments you and makes you feel better about yourself without even knowing he is making a difference.

letting the part create itself.

all of my life i have been concerned with living in the now and not even considering the future.

and now that my future is happening now i am scared because now i want to look at my future. and i am scared because i have lived so much in the now i have not left anything for my future and my future is with my best man. i feel like i have let him down and i don't want to feel like that. also i don't know how to be a friend, not being able to follow through. i don't want to be alone when brad is not around. i need to create friendship, companionship, community when my best man is doing his own thing so that i am not alone if i don't want to be.

mom....its not moms fault, she was living more in her now just trying to get by day to day and that ment something had to fall through the cracks. and sure she was selfish, because she was looking to make herself happy (who dosent want to be happy) it was just that she had two kids to look after and it did not fit into her trying to make herself happy.

a vocal brainstorm. to see what i am saying. glen beck? alway associated work with getting out of the house. find something to do to get out of the house....voulenteering? what? where?

gray and gloomy driving to houston, leaving a beautiful austin...i want to feel something more than the weather around me when i am going somewhere...always being able to see the silver lining, and a way to tell myself that this too shall pass and even though i can't necessarally see the silver lining at the moment but to know that it is there.

talk it out.

restroom locator app. visit a lot of toilets.